Debbie has posted almost daily, since her cancer diagnosis... about her thoughts, fears, challenges, as well as her achievements and progress.

We hope these posts help you in some way.

May you find them enlightening and inspirational.

MARCH 21, 2019

An Open Letter to My Friends & Family

Each of you are special to me in your own unique way. I value our relationship and wish I could sit down with each of you personally to share this difficult news and a hug.

The last 11 days have been a whirlwind. A colonoscopy and follow up tests revealed I have Cancer. Even with that, there is Good News. CT scans of my abdomen and pelvis did not reveal any other tumors. Next week I will have surgery for a port, a MRI, another CT scan of the tumor and adjacent area, and preps to begin both Chemo and Radiation the following week. The goal is to shrink the tumor and kill any Cancer cells that may be out and about. Down the road, I will have surgery.

My prayer is that, foremost, this journey, no matter how it unfolds, will be used for good. You can't do that in the dark. I have always faced life openly, and this is no different. It will be significant, and will change me forever, but it will be just a part of me and will not consume my life.

I accept God's will. If it be his will, I ask that he allow me to go on and do the animal therapy work that has been my heart's desire all my life. I believe that he will use this experience to help me best relate, and be an inspiration, to children and adults with terminal illness in the Hospital.

Please know that I am strong, with strong faith, and a joyful heart, and have a great support network of close friends and family.

I am overwhelmed by the kindness and generosity of so many people. For your prayers and support, sharing your own personal battles with Cancer, saying my story inspired you to urge someone you love to get a colonoscopy that was overdue. For helping with my furry kids, cooking meals, listening, crying and laughing with me.

The road ahead will not be easy I know. But I am confident that with God's help, my prayer warriors and cheerleaders, I can do this!

Please continue to keep me, my mom, my brother, and my precious nephews in your prayers.

With love and gratitude...
Debbie

MARCH 24, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song...#1

This memory I posted exactly 1 year ago today. Thank you God for knowing me and my heart.

Here is what I wrote back THEN:

On my bucket list for retirement. With Dogs, and Bunnies too. Some of the best and most important work I will have ever done. I pray it will come true and I will be able to do it.

I know that there will be hard, sometimes very hard, moments. But I rest and take heart in knowing that I can share my love, and the pure love of animals, to bring comfort and joy to those who are hurting, scared, lonely, or sick.

All my life I have worked at jobs, good jobs, and I have been grateful for them, and have tried to help people and be good and kind to them. "Do whatever you can, whenever you can, for whomever you can."

In a couple of years, I hope to follow my passion and share what I honesty believe is my mission and gift.

Life has prepared me.

APRIL 4, 2019
Open Letter To My Friends and Family

With a grateful and joyful heart I share good news received late yesterday.

My PET scan did not reveal any additional Cancer in any vital organs!

Monday I begin both Chemotherapy and Radiation treatments. The battle is on! And I am armed with God's help, angels all around me, and YOU!

Treatments will be followed by surgery to remove the tumor in the affected area and a complete hysterectomy, then additional Chemotherapy.

Thank you for walking with me on my journey. I see and feel you with each step. I love you.

APRIL 7, 2019

If you see me crying, It is not because I am sad. It is because my heart is moved.

APRIL 11, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song...#2 & 3

The day we went to find out the results of my colonoscopy, it was early morning. No one was near, except for 3 people approaching from the side at a distance. As we all made our way to the entrance, I was amazed to see it was one of Dad's very best friends, his wife and daughter. They worked together for many years, went fishing, and played golf. We were going to the same place, at the same time. I see them maybe once a year. My knowing was that Dad could not be here physically on the earth with me that day, though I feel him near, so he sent his dear friend.

A few days later, a friend at work brought in the Exponent Telegram from March 24, 2019. It had an insert of the front page from March 23, 1969 with my Grandpa Reon's (Dad's Dad) obit. He was the Assistant Manager at GC Murphy's in downtown Clarksburg for many years.

I don't get the Newspaper. Neither does my mom or brother. I never would have seen this unless my coworker remembered a story I had once told her about him and brought it to me.

I loved both of these men deeply. They were both good, honest, kind men with integrity. They both died of Cancer.

My thoughts...
There are Angels among us.
When we share, and we receive, we connect and miracles happen.

APRIL 20, 2019

Spring. The season of hope, renewal, miracles, and promises kept. 2nd
week Anniversary of Chemo and Radiation; outside enjoying the blessings
that surround me.

APRIL 26, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #4

Today I celebrate and give thanks this week...

For completing 3 weeks of Chemo and Radiation...I'm halfway through treatments! Still able to work. Still planting in my perennial gardens, mowing grass, filling bird feeders and taking walks. Still attending Church, and sharing great times with friends and family.

For the IT tech I just met when he set up my computer in my new office, and came back 2 weeks later with a prayer shaw his mother made for me.

For Linda whom I met when she bought something I was selling and ended up sharing her family's battle with Cancer and becoming my friend.

For my new friends and fellow patients at the Cancer Center who support each other and check on you if you miss a day.

For so many phone calls, cards, thoughtful gifts, food deliveries, FB messages, acts of service, and especially the Prayers. Oh and the Hugs...the wonderful Hugs.

I'm blessed to have you with me on this journey

MAY 5, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #5

I've had side effects this weekend from treatment and was not able to attend church today. The tv service I happened upon began with this beautiful song... I will Sing in the Storm...Heaven has come to fight for me!

On Fri as my Radiation began, I closed my eyes and began to pray as I often do.

I saw my Dad's face... just his beautiful face... and he said "You will be ok Debbie." We locked eyes deeply for a few moments and then he was gone.

MAY 13, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #6

Bunny (one of Debbie's pet rabbits) is my Nurse on Duty tonight as I enter Week 6 of Chemotherapy and Radiation. A glimpse of God's heart, right here.

MAY 18, 2019
This is My Story...This is My Song #7

Friday I completed phase 1 of my journey. More battles to come soon. But for now, with God's help, and with yours,
I Rise Up...
Unafraid...
In spite of the ache...

MAY 29, 2019

Prayer Request
SAT 6/1, 10AM
CT Scan to see, before surgery, if Cancer has spread while I've been on treatments.

JUNE 2, 2019

I want you to know...
As I entered the CT scanner,
I prayed and gave thanks for each one of you who are praying for me.

JUNE 5, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #8

With a joyful heart I share the Good News of today's Oncologist visit and my CT Scan last Saturday.

No evidence of the Cancer spreading. The rectal wall has thinned back out in response to treatments, which is good, and my Markers are stable. We won't know if the tumor itself has shrunk until surgery.

I meet with the Surgeon on Friday.

Last night, once again just before getting test results, God and Dad sent an Earth Angel my way, my Uncle Don, my Dad's brother. I had worked late to make up missed time, and quickly picked up only milk for breakfast at Kroger. As I hurried to check-out, I heard my name. I went back a row and there he was. He took my hand and he choked up and said Deb, we are praying hard for you. I know he was thinking of Dad too.

Your prayers are working! I am so grateful for your healing love and support. Praise God!

JUNE 22, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #9

It was important to me, before surgery on July 2, to pay respects to my good friend Barbara Highland and thank her for making the Cancer Center at UHC possible.

Barbara was an amazing woman in many ways. Strong, brilliant, generous, and accepting. I cherish our many visits, stories and talks over a glass of wine, often funny, always meaningful and wise. Thank you Barb. I miss you.

JUNE 29, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #10

My surgery is being moved to Ruby with 2 new surgeons. Should know the new date sometime next week.

God, the great Healer and Protector, has a plan. I trust it.

Please continue to pray. I love you.

July 7, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #11

On this journey, I have been confident that God has a plan for me and I have trusted Him.

Along the way there have been many, many blessings, but also significant obstacles. The obstacles have been man made, but God has used them for good.

My surgery date is now July 30th at Ruby with a new Team of Surgeons who are trained in their specific areas of Surgery, as well as Oncology.

Although I feel like I am pregnant and now in my 10th month, I am grateful. I know I am where I need to be and now confident going into Surgery. I am using this time to enjoy a few more weeks of Summer and live fully with my family, friends, kids, and myself.

In the Rain, there is also a Rainbow.
In the Storm, there is also a Harbor.
In the Darkest of Night, there is also a Dawn.
In all things, God is present.
He has never left me.

I ask and thank you for your continued prayers, support, and love.

July 24, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #12

My garden is a special place of creativity, beauty, peace and reflection. A place to connect with Nature. A place of renewal and growth. And a place to pray and rest.

I come to the Garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses;
And the voice I hear
Falling on my ear,
The Son of God discloses.

He speaks, and the sound of his voice
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing;
And the melody
That He gives to me,
Within my heart is ringing.

And He walks with me and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am his own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.

July 27, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #13

Praise God! Another MRI, confirmed by a Flex Sig Scope, reveals the large cancerous tumor is GONE! And there are no remaining active lymph nodes in my pelvic area!

A tremendous response to treatment, yes. A miracle, for sure.

My surgeon said, "I saw the marker where it had been, but no tumor. So I looked for 30 minutes. No tumor Debbie."

That does not mean the cancer is completely gone. And there is a new concern of suspicious cells in my cervix...it could be more cancer...or it could be abnormalities caused by the radiation.

I will still have major surgery to remove the area where the tumor had been, a complete hysterectomy, and an ileostomy which we hope will be temporary.

But I rest knowing God is with me every step. And I give Him praise and thanks for the blessing and Good News of nothing short of a miracle. I am thankful. And I am humbled by His amazing love.

July 29, 2019

A shout out to my Mom, Jeanie Davis. A strong woman, raised by strong women, raising a strong woman.You have taught me courage, fierce determination, hard work, and strong

faith... all by example.

I wish you did not have to go through this Mom, but I am so glad you are with me.

I love you Mom.

August 2, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #14

Rescue Therapy Dog Advanced Training.

If you know me at all, you know deeply I love animals and that my goal, for many years, has been to provide this service with a trained Golden Retriever for Cancer patients in honor of my Dad and others when I retire.

Today I was visited by Therapy Dogs Sadie, a Terrier and Gus, a large Sheepdog who also layed beside me in bed.. Also a very special Rabbit who is going home with me.

Life Is Good.

August 3, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #15

Today I go Home. Home to Heal. What beautiful words!

So far, all of my biopsies done during the surgery have come back Cancer free. They have also sent samples away and those results should be back in 1 to 2 weeks.

My surgeons here at Ruby will work as a team with my Oncologist at UHC to formulate my final Chemo plan.

Praise God! My heart is full. I am very aware that the majority of people do not get such positive results. I will not let them go to waste.

August 10, 2019

I never asked God for it to be easy. I asked God for it to be possible, knowing everything is possible through Him.

I don't take pictures of those times.

Tonight is hard. Tomorrow will be better.

August 21, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #17

I can see the Summit!

Today we met with my primary Oncologist to finalize my last phase of Cancer treatment. I will have 18 weeks, 9 rounds, of hard core chemo, beginning September 11, 2019 and ending January 1, 2020.

Possible side effects are thinning/loss of hair, neuropathy which can become permanent (can't touch, breathe or drink anything cold...will be a challenge in December), drops in blood cell counts, hand-foot syndrome (pain, swelling), risk of infection, fatigue, and nausea.

Shortly after that, I will return to Ruby for surgery to have my ileostomy reversed, and my infusion port removed.

My doctor reiterated that I had a complete, 100%, response to treatment, and that is rare. The tumor was gone before surgery and all surgical pathology came back negative.

He also shared the he had just finishing telling another patient that his pathology showed a zero response.  My heart ached and I can't get this man off of my mind tonight. I realize how truly blessed I am. Please join me in prayer for him.

Thank you for your unceasing prayers, cards, phone calls, flowers, gifts, and many acts of service. They have encouraged and uplifted me, and given me courage and strength.

Although I am tired, I am joyous, and ready to tackle this last challenge.

May God bless each one of you as you have blessed me.

August 27, 2019

This is My Story, This is My Song #18

Things Cancer Has Taught Me...So far...

1) Jesus loves me.

2) All things are possible with God.

3) I am strong. Really strong.

4) Earlier struggles helped prepare me for this. My own, and the struggles of others.

5) I know you better now. Hopefully, you know me better too. If so, it is because we both shared deeply, honestly, and unselfishly. And because we listened to each other.

6) My body is forever changed. I wear the scars with pride, for I fought, perservered, and                  won. So is my heart, with a deeper awareness and empathy that is reached through shared experience.

7) Love never dies, even when the person does. There are Angels among us.

8) Some you think will come, won't. Some you never thought would come, will. Love them all,      and don't judge, for we are each on our own walk and at different points in our journey.

9) All things can be healed.

10) We're all just walking each other Home.

September 1, 2019

This is My Story...This Is My Song #19

Celebrating a milestone! With my good friend Diana Long Bedell as a safety net, I was able to try stairs for the first time yesterday. It was a joy to love on the Buns. I have missed them!

September 6, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #20

Meet Me at the Altar! ...whether near or far.

I'm praying for God's help to be well enough to be part of worship this Sunday.

To give thanks and praise for his abundant love and blessings, to ask for continued mercies as I begin aggressive post surgery chemo Sept 11, and to join in prayer for all those in need.

I danced in the morning
When the world was begun,
And I danced in the moon
And the stars and the sun,
And I came down from heaven
And I danced on the earth,
At Bethlehem
I had my birth.

Dance, then, wherever you may be,
I am the Lord of the Dance, said he,
And I'll lead you all, wherever you may be,
And I'll lead you all in the Dance, said he.

They cut me down
And I leapt up high;
I am the life
That'll never, never die;
I'll live in you
If you'll live in me -
I am the Lord
Of the Dance, said he.

Dance, then, wherever you may be,
I am the Lord of the Dance, said he,
And I'll lead you all, wherever you may be,
And I'll lead you all in the Dance, said he.

September 9, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #21

Dear Lord,

I didn't know about the challenges, pain & effort of ileostomies and colostomies. Now I do. Now I truly know how to pray for those affected.

Thank you for teaching me. Although mine will be reversed, I will not forget, for I am forever changed.

Take me,
Mold me,
Use me,
Fill me.

Isaiah 64:8

Amen.

September 11, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #22

First round of aggressive followup Chemotherapy began today, 9/11. 9 cycles over 18 weeks.

A cycle goes like this: Bloodwork, see Doctor, 3 hour infusion, then get hooked up to portable Chemo pump which will dispense over another 46 hours at home, return to Cancer Center to be disconnected, let drugs do their thing...repeat.

Possible side effects are nausea and vomiting, extreme tiredness, neuropathy pain and stinging (can't touch or breathe anything cold), sores in mouth, hands and feet, and hair thinning and loss.

It won't always be this pretty going forward (the effects are usually cumulative), but God has been with me every step and I will get through it to the other side.

Much love and thanks to my Mom...her support, faith, and encouragement have been a rock.

September 15, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #23

I didn't expect to be so sick starting with round 1 of this final post surgery chemo. I find I tolerate pain better than I do extreme persistent nausea.

Cooper and Zelda never leave my side; they bring great comfort...feeling their warmth and hearing their heartbeats and gentle reassuring snores.

My faith and determination remain strong. Praying for mercies and giving thanks for my loyal family and friends. Your encouragement and prayers are priceless.

September 20, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #25

A wise childhood friend recently encouraged me, on the hardest days, to dream...to make a list of things I am looking forward to the most when I get through this.

Here they are, in RANDOM order:

Waking up and feeling like my old self...healthy, happy, full of energy, with no thought of Cancer.

Having nothing taped to my body.

Overnight stays and going places with Tyler and Carter.

Family get togethers at my brother's and laughing till we cry.

Digging in my garden.

Going to the beach.

Boating.

Taking long walks with my dogs.

Caring for my bunnies the way I used to and finishing updates to Graceland.

Rediscovering the things I love, trying new things, and settling in with the new me.

Enjoying my favorite foods.

Sharing a glass of wine over a good story and a hearty laugh with my friends.

Being independent and able to care for myself and others again.

Being able to attend church again.

Hugging every one of you, and, if you are up for it, dancing!

Seeing my mom rested, really rested, and relieved.

Thank you, Tina, for the great advice.

September 24, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #26

Prayer request as I return for more Chemo tomorrow. It's been ruff.

God, in His infinite wisdom and compassion, knew I would need not 1, but 2, dogs on this journey.

September 29, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #27

There is someone near you, perhaps it's you, that is aching for a hug.

My Grandma Mildred was a diabetic and on dialysis, back when patients had to travel to Morgantown because treatment was not available in Clarksburg. Grandpa had passed years before.

Mom worked full time, but was able to help take Grandma to nearly all of her appointments. One day she needed help and I volunteered. I was probably about 20. I went into her house to help her to the car. She was ready, but needed to go back to her bedroom to get her sweater.

I waited, and after several minutes walked back to check on her. She was struggling. I helped her get her 2nd arm into the sleeve, then turned around to face her and make sure it was on straight.

She was shorter and as she looked up at me I was overcome with emotion. With silent tears, I simply hugged her. A hug from the heart.

She simply said, "Debbie that feels so good. So good."

It is a hug that I will never forget, and that somehow shaped me.

October 1, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #28

Someday, when my time comes, please make sure my animals get to say Goodbye. I'll be there, waiting for them.

October 5, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #29

On October 19, 1998 my Dad passed away at age 61 from Cancer (his 2nd bout). His last birthday was October 7th.

My brother was only 18 and in his 1st semester at WVU. I was 39.

Although he loved life and wanted to live very much, and fought bravely and with grace to beat it, Mom says that each night, on his knees, his prayer was that his children would be spared from this horrific disease. A disease that he had watched his own Mom and Dad die from years earlier.

When I was a little girl, every day he would come home from work with something in his silver metal lunchbox for me. It might be a cookie he saved from his lunch, or a nickel, or a cartoon he had drawn. It made me feel special.

My Dad was a Marine, a Marksman with medals, yet "somehow" he never once bagged a deer when he went hunting with his buddies. I loved that about him.

He loved golf, basketball, the beach, dogs, and gardening.

He tended roses, I believe, in honor of his Grandma Brice, who had loved them too. She was a significant person in his life growing up.

In some ways, my Dad had a hard life as a boy. Yet I don't remember him complaining. It shaped him, but he quietly used those experiences for good.

He enjoyed helping me, and later my brother, with school projects. Now I see my brother doing the same with his 2 boys.

The funeral home was packed for 3 days. The line extended out the door, and the people just kept coming. They told stories of how funny he was, of being such a good friend to them, of dressing nice and smelling great, of WI band camp, football games and trips, and of working hard and always trying his best at everything he did.

Some of you may remember my post after one of my early Radiation treatments...I started to pray as I always did when the machine began. I saw my Dad's face near mine and he said "Debbie, you are going to be ok." We looked deeply into each other's eyes and then he was gone. I tell you with certainty...he was there... and I thank God for that.

So, Dad, I am fighting hard...at this very same age of 61...to honor you, and Mom, and your earnest prayer that your children would be spared. To go on and do good. To be in those boys' lives as they grow and to help support and shape them, but mostly to love them and make them laugh, as you would have done.

I miss you and love you Dad. And I hold tight to the promise that we will be together again one day.

October 8, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #30

PRAYER REQUEST
Tomorrow, Wed, at 10am...
Post Surgery Chemo Round #3

What will it bring?
Nausea and vomiting? Round 1
Painful Neuropathy in feet? Round 2
Exhaustion? Always
Something new, like mouth sores or hair loss?

I don't know.

What I do know...
I will be 33.3% through this final set of treatments.
I will be another step closer to getting back to doing things I cherish.
God and my prayer warriors will bring me through it.

October 9, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #31

No Chemo today :( White blood count and Neutrophil count too low. My body needs another week to recover from the last round.

Doctors assured me there is nothing I can do, not do, or change to prevent it...the Chemo is in control. Must be masked in public this week to help prevent infection.

Thanks for your many prayers yesterday and this morning. I will rest and we'll try again next week!

October 11, 2019

Me on Chemo and multiple nausea meds.
The struggle is real.
Height: 5'8"
Weight today: 139.4
Original weight: 164.0

October 12, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #32

For my Dad and all the other Angels I have lost. I owe so much to my strong Heritage.

And for you and your Angels too my friend. I hope this song touches and heals your heart as it has mine.

October 16, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #33

Happy birthday Cooper Lee & Zelda ZZ Marie!

10 years is alot of living. Through it all you've been my faithful companions, my comforters, my joys. Your warmth, heartbeats, and gentle reassuring snores have helped me beat Cancer, kept me steady and positive, and chased away my loneliness on the longest, darkest days.

October 16, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #34

Great news! On the Road Again (to Recovery)!

Cleared for Chemo #3 today! We are 33.3% toward home on this final leg of treatments.

Thank you for giving me a "lift;" your prayers and encouragement carry me through.

October 17, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #35

Rough seas make strong Sailors. I trust my Navigator. I am Ready For the Storm and the Lighthouse ahead is shining brighter each day.

October 22, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #36

My heart does not have Cancer.

It still dreams, loves to dance, aches to love, yearns to soar, hurts for others, and can be moved to tears of joy and sadness.

My heart does not have Cancer.

October 26, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #37

LESSON LEARNED

Sharing in case this can help someone else.
The jury is still out on my hair loss. But here's what I have learned...

I was taking hot showers with the crown of my scalp toward the streaming water as I washed my hair.

Hot water opens the capillaries & increases blood flow to the nerve endings in the scalp.

My blood has Chemo in it & Chemo is cumulative; it builds up in your system over more treatments.

The crown of my scalp felt like someone had grabbed a gob of hair there & tried to RIP it out.

The scalp does that when the hair is starting to break off & fall out due to the Chemo.

I can apply a cold compress to that area (being careful not to touch the ice due to Neuropathy per Rule #128... to lessen the soreness & restrict the capillaries to reduce blood flow. I'll also reduce the water temp when I wash my hair.

Now we know!

October 28, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #38

SWEET ARE THE PRAYERS OF A FRIEND

On Sunday, a friend from the church I attended & was a member of the Chancel & Handbell choirs several years before returning to the church I grew up in to worship with my 79 year old mom, sent me the words & music to their Anthem that morning.

I cried. God has blessed me with amazing, true, forever friends. I hope you know how much I love you and how much you help me daily on this journey.

Please read the words & listen to the music below as I send them back in prayer to each of you.

SWEET ARE THE PRAYERS OF A FRIEND
--Pepper Chopin

Sweet are the prayers of a friend.
How sweet are the prayers
that are offered up by a friend,
who calls up to heaven,
“Lord, come down and bless again.”

Friends pray for healing,
they pray revealing,
the heavenly burdens of our souls.
They pray for courage, unfailing courage, asking God to make us whole.

Friends pray us through troubles,
pray us through struggles,
when life seems to fall apart.
They pray us through grieving, always believing,
our God can heal a broken heart.

For, indeed, sweet are the prayers of a friend, for a friend.

October 30, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #39

GREEN light for Chemo #4 today! I am one happy pup!

Doctor had to add Neulasta and again reduce Chemo strength to 80%, but he is confident I am going to be ok...so am I.

It is well...it is well...with my Soul!

October 31, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #40

A HARSH REALITY OF HEALTH CARE TODAY

The cost of 1 Neulasta patch alone is $8,000. I may need 5.

I have pretty good insurance (which I am grateful for) but don't know how much will be covered.

When you vote please take a hard, informed, look at health care.

We can do better. We MUST do better America!

Until you are in this situation, battling for your life, & it's front & center, especially as a single person who is too young for Medicare, & at the same time your pay is reduced on STD (which I am also grateful for) to just 60%, you just can't imagine the enormity of the expense. My insurance summaries are often 25 pages long...Each time!

It's real. And my heart breaks for those who are even less fortunate. Thanks for listening.

November 2, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #41

It's Complicated...

Here's my Neulasta patch. Will auto dispense starting @ 6pm to 645pm tonight.

My friend, because it forces production of WBCs which will allow me to finish my last 5 chemo treatments.

But side effects range from added exhaustion, bone & stomach pain, fever, rash, hair loss, & numbness (common) to Severe Respiratory Distress and Ruptured Spleen with possible death (rare).

Arrived with alot of baggage...a video & instruction manual. A very expensive date and a complicated relationship! Gonna be short-term I think.

November 6, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #42

My dogs:

3.5 lbs of heart. Born with a liver shunt. They said she probably wouldn't live without surgery.

She was very tiny, but had great spirit & determination. I promised to love her, watch her closely, and make that decision later if she ever started to fail. She and her brother Cooper, are now 10.

Zelda Marie dreaming of what treats Santa might bring this year. What a comfort and blessing they have been during my battle with Cancer. Zelda's journey has been an inspiration to me for my own.

November 8, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #43

PRAYER REQUEST

Neulasta side effect has been significant bone & muscle pain & increased exhaustion. In my experience, it's worse than the Chemo. I'll try hard to tough it out to finish treatment. Please help pray me through it.

November 10, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #44

🙏 DEDICATED TO MY PRAYER WARRIORS 🙏
With Love

What am I going to do? What can 1 do?

1 talking to 2, touching 3, growing to 4...We are each 1.

It just amazes me, that I can be part of the energy it takes to serve each other.

Open your heart and let the love come shining through, and you will do what you need to do, to know just where the other you is coming from.

What are we going to do? We're gonna run, reach for the sun, come together as 1, show 'em how it's done.

At the end of the day, we'll be able to say,
LOVE WON!

-Carole King

After several days of pain I finally feel a break...once again our joint prayers have been answered. Thank you for sticking with me.

November 14, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #45

The love of a dog (Zelda ZZ Marie) and her girl. Dog...God spelled backwards. Makes sense to me.

November 14, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #46

One of my friends at work sent me this prayer. Perfect for this time of waiting. It was very helpful to me, and so I share it with you. 🙏

I wait, I hope, I dwell in this place of expectancy, not alone but with you at my side.

Father, please come and calm my mind and still my thoughts with truth and life. You are all that I need, for here I can lean into you and find rest.

Lord, guard my mind, fill it with heavenly hope and my soul with a peace that surpasses understanding.

I pray for good news, news that brings release and freedom for me. Yet I know that you are the good news! That in you I have found the greatest treasure, the safest harbour, the most beautiful sanctuary.

So I wait, I hope, I dwell with you. Amen.

November 17, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #47

2 reasons I fight so hard...my nephews.

November 18, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #48

My boy (dog), Cooper Lee. Healer.

November 21, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #49

PRAISE GOD!
My breast biopsies just came back negative... no Cancer at all!

Thanksgiving November 28, 2019 will be an especially joyous and blessed one for me, my mom, my brother, my family and friends. I will never ever forget it!

I've been Standing on the Promises and Leaning on Jesus while waiting to hear this news. Your support has also been a great source of strength and comfort during this very difficult time. I would have tried my very best, but it would have been very hard to fight a 2nd Cancer just as I am finishing my year long fight and treatment with the current one.

I hope you will celebrate with me in your own way on this Thanksgiving Day as we continue to reach across the miles in friendship, faith and love.

May God bless you and your families as He has blessed me. My heart is both humbled and full.

December 2, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #50

I wanted just a few special decorations up this year, especially for the boys. Thanks to my family and friends for helping me make it a reality. My heart is ready and open for Christmas. God bless. 💖🙏

December 4, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #51

Grateful my body will allow post surgical Chemo #6 today...67% to goal.

This makes a total of 35 Chemo and 29 Radiation treatments to date.

Unfortunately I have to have Neulasta again this time (bone pain side effect), BUT, I'm on schedule!

Wishing you a great day my friend.

December 5, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #52

FAITH

Someone, seeking to understand, asked me: Wasn't it a little risky to post all those times before you got all those results through all those tests, procedures, and surgeries?

No, that's Faith. It's also promising up front I'd accept God's will no matter what the result was.

December 10, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #53

The pain has subsided this morning. I sing His Praises as the rain falls here in the Light of this new day!

MORNING HAS BROKEN!
Like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken like the first bird
Praise for the singing
Praise for the morning
Praise for them springing fresh from the world

Sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
Like the first dew fall on the first grass
Praise for the sweetness of the wet garden
Sprung in completeness where His feet pass

Mine is the sunlight
Mine is the morning
Born of the one light Eden saw play
Praise with elation, praise every morning
God's recreation of the new day

December 12, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #54

All I want for Christmas:

To be able to attend church services to praise God at the altar for my Christmas miracle.

To celebrate with my family and friends.

An emotional support dog Golden Retriever for my future volunteer work with cancer patients, children and the elderly.

December 12, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #54B

This is the service volunteer work I want to do so much...to honor my Dad, to share the healing power and pure love of animals, to give back and pay it forward. I want to have a service dog.

December 18, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #55

ACTS OF SERVICE

Over these past 6 months I've come face to face daily with the fact that I've needed help. At times, alot of help.

I've strived to remain as independent as I can & also make it as easy as possible on my caregivers. But no doubt about it, I could not be doing it without them...including so many of YOU.

The experience has caused me to think deeply & prayerfully about Acts of Service, what they mean, & why they are so important, at times critical, & to strive to do more of them myself for others in the future.

I believe an Act of Service is Prayer IN ACTION. It's being in relationship with each other & with God. It's taking responsibility to help God and not leaving it all for Him to do.

Even Jesus came to serve.

It's an act of Love. It's also about using our God given gifts & talents for good. To comfort, lift up, & help heal. To minister to each other & show compassion & empathy. And as Poet Annie Flint wrote about them below, to be 'God's Hands & Feet to do his work today.'

So thank you...for doing what you could...for doing what I could not. And, most importantly, for doing it with a happy heart, gentleness, kindness & a smile.

For:
Staying with me after major surgery
Visiting, listening, laughing & crying with me
Looking me in the heart & hugging me
Driving me to treatments & Doctor apptmts
Bringing food as I dropped from 165 to 128 lbs
Helping with my furbabies
Running my vacuum & cleaning my bathrooms
Grocery shopping
Picking up my mail
Helping me navigate STD, ins, & return to work
Sending care pkgs of items I'd need for Chemo
Sending cards, flowers, & cheery gifts

Thanking you is not enough. I will use it for good & be a better servant for it.

My friend Judy shared this poem with me titled THE WORLD'S BIBLE by Annie Flint. She was born in 1866 & died in 1932. Saved at a revival meeting in New Jersey, she became an invalid at a young age due to crippling arthritis.

Here it is:

"Christ has no hands but our hands
To do His work today;
He has no feet but our feet
To lead men in His way;
He has no tongues but our tongues
To tell men how He died;
He has no help but our help
To bring them to His side.

We are the only Bible
The careless world will read;
We are the sinner’s Gospel,
We are the scoffer’s creed;
We are the Lord’s last message,
Given in deed and word;
What if the type is crooked?
What if the print is blurred?

What if our hands are busy
With work other than His?
What if our feet are walking
Where sin’s allurement is?
What if our tongues are speaking
Of things His lips would spurn?
How can we hope to help Him
And hasten His return?"

December 25, 2019

This is My Story...This is My Song #56

2019 has been about faith, acceptance, determination and rejoicing for the many blessings along the journey. Christmas has been no different.

I was not able to attend church on Christmas eve with my family. BUT I had church here, by myself in the stillness of the Holiest night of the year. AND I was not alone; God was with me.

I was not able to go to my brother's on Christmas Day. BUT they and Mom spent Christmas eve with me. We played Life and opened presents. AND the boys brought me 50 cutout hand colored paper ornaments because I was not able to fully decorate my tree this year and they wanted to be sure I had some. It does not get any more precious than that.

AND today we will do a FB live video call so I can be with them remotely. Thank you LB. 💖

I am grateful for the many friends who stopped by these last 3 weeks, called, and sent gifts and messages from afar.

I will remember this different, but very special, Christmas always.

January 7, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #58

The Gift of Cancer

Cancer is a war on your body, mind & spirit. It's sneaky, unpredictable & ruthless. It stops you cold in your tracks & demands your immediate attention. It changes you forever.

Still, I've found joy in the journey & gifts to behold & embrace.

* It deepened my faith. I was raised in the church & my faith has always been an important part of my life. But my personal relationship with God has deepened in a way that I'm not sure would have happened without Cancer. Profoundly, it became simpler & clearer to me. In part, I surrendered. I remember the day, midway in my journey, when I realized I had fallen in love with God in a way I had never quite experienced before.

* It deepened my relationships. It showed me how much I am loved. That's precious in a world that is sometimes harsh, shallow, & judgemental. You learn who your friends really are. And I found I have so many, from a lifelong journey, who were there when I needed them most. I truly love you for that. You literally helped save my life. I will be there for you.

* It gave me lots of quality time, despite the pain & harsh side effects from treatment. Precious time with my 79 year old Mom, without interruptions, to really talk & listen to each other. Time to visit & correspond with friends far & near. Time to think deeply about my life going forward, my priorities, what brings me & others joy, & how I can live fully each day & in a way that I want to be remembered.

* It reminded me that I alone am in charge of & responsible for my health. I've always been very healthy. At age 61, I was not on any medicines at all before Cancer, was a reasonable weight, & had an active lifestyle. But I did not keep up with my health screenings. I am not a cook, & I ate too many processed foods. I am changing that.

* I learned just how strong I am. And just how important the foundation that my Mom, Dad, grandparents, great grandparents & others gave me has been in my life. A foundation of faith, grit, determination, courage & passion.

* It made me more empathetic. I've always considered myself to be pretty empathetic, but through Cancer God increased my awareness of things I had not experienced.

Thanks for letting me share my experience & heart. Just 1 more treatment to go, then surgery to reverse my ileostomy & remove my port.

January 15, 2020

This is my Story...This is My Song #59

Today is a very emotional day. I'm cleared for my final Cancer treatment! Tears of joy filled our eyes & gratitude filled our hearts. It has been a long time coming.

My Oncologist said I have had the best possible response to treatment I could have hoped for. He will do a follow up CT scan in a few weeks and then monitor me very closely for a long

time.

Height: 5' 8"
Original weight: 164 lbs
Weight today: 125 lbs
Cancer stage: 3
# Radiation treatments: 29
# Chemo treatments: 38
Surgeries: Recision of rectum/colon, temp
ileostomy, complete hysterectomy

The body, mind, & spirit are miraculous in what they can endure & heal from. Praise God for the journey & this day!

Thinking a lot about my Dad.

Now to rest, get the chemo out of my body & have final surgery to reverse my ileostomy & remove my port in about 6 weeks or so.

January 23, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #60

Today is my 1st Wednesday without Chemotherapy, Neulasta, Radiation or Surgery in a very long time.

That, alone, makes today a perfect day for dancing and rejoicing.

January 25, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #61

Humbly and prayerfully I dedicate this to my friends and family members of friends who have lost their battle with Cancer, especially those in the 14 months I have been battling my own.

This is personally important to me to publicly acknowledge...I realize how fortunate I am, and I will never take that for granted. I will continue to fight, learn and grow, and pay it forward.

I won't name them here; there are 5. Too many.
Some young, some not so young, all good Souls.

Goodbye My Friend
Karla Bonoff / Linda Ronstadt

Oh we never know where life will take us
I know it's just a ride on the wheel.
And we never know when death will shake us
And we wonder how it will feel.
So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again (till Heaven)
But the time together through all the years
Will take away these tears
It's ok now...
Goodbye my friend.
I see a lot of things that make me crazy
And I guess I held on to you
I could of run away and left
Well, maybe...
But it wasn't time we both knew.
So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the love you gave me through all the years…
Will take away these tears
I'm ok now...
Goodbye my friend.
Life's so fragile and love's so pure
We can't hold on but we try.
We watch how quickly it disappears
And we never know why.
But I'm ok now
Goodbye my friend.
I can go now
Goodbye my friend.

January 27, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #62

Many of you know I have Acute Glaucoma, and I go to the WVU Eye Institute every few months for testing and treatment. I have approx 5% of my optic nerve left in 1 eye and 15% in the other. I had laser eye surgery in 2017, and things have held pretty steady since then. Pretty daunting stuff.

I've been silently praying that the 38 strong Chemo treatments would not cause any additional damage and require additional surgery...a surgery that they can only do a limited # of times.

I had an appointment today. My pressures were excellent and Dr Realini did not find any additional damage during testing. He cleared me for 4 more months.

Praise the Lord! He heard and answered yet another prayer. His power and love are amazing.

February 10, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #63

2 years ago. My how my nephews have grown.

I miss our sleep overs, EZ ups and morning breakfast, and hangin' out so much. I can't wait to get back to 100%. Last surgery Feb 28th. These boys are a major reason I fight with all I've got. They keep my will strong and my heart soft.

February 13, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #64

1 Corinthians 13:13: “And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

In the end, what matters most is love. Hold them close, hug them tight, tell them you love them, show them they matter. For in a moment it can be gone. Happy Valentine's Day.

February 16, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #65

Waiting on test results for a serious illness is a major test of faith. As we face new challenges and await more results, we are Standing on the Promises and Resting in the Loving Arms of God. With each step we feel Him close.

Thank you Judy for your inspiring and uplifting visit today. Your timing, and God's, were perfect. Mom and I appreciated it so much.

Standing on the promises of Christ my king,
through eternal ages let his praises ring;
glory in the highest, I will shout and sing,
standing on the promises of God.

Standing, standing,
standing on the promises of God my Savior;
standing, standing,
I’m standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises that cannot fail,
when the howling storms of doubt and fear assail,
by the living Word of God I shall prevail,
standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises of Christ the Lord,
bound to him eternally by love’s strong cord,
overcoming daily with the Spirit’s sword,
standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises I cannot fall,
listening every moment to the Spirit’s call,
resting in my Savior as my all in all,
standing on the promises of God.

February 19, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #66

PRAISE REPORT!

Met with my UHC Oncologist and talked by phone with my Ruby Surgical Oncolgist today about my latest CT scan results.

Abundant tissue stranding in Presacral space between between colon/rectum and spine is just Radiation damage and inflammation (no Cancer)!

My Cancer Marker from bloodwork was only 4 today (in normal range)!

Some concern about Gallstones (1 has moved to neck of Gallbladder) and thickened wall, but not Cancer related, and not immediate!

1 more test to pass for ileostomy reversal and chemo port removal surgery on Feb 28.

Mom meets with her Doctor tomorrow at Ruby to discuss her results.

February 20, 2020

Prayers for our Mom

On Wed, Mom will have surgery at Ruby. She was diagnosed with Uterine Cancer a few days ago and will have a complete hysterectomy.

Praise God, the doctors think it was caught early; they will know more after surgery.

As you know, Mom is very strong in her faith, determination, and resolve.

My surgery is Fri and it is likely we will be at Ruby together for a day or two.

My brother Chad W. Davis and I are grateful for your prayers and support. We love our Mom very much.

February 21, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #67

This morning, I woke early from a restful sleep. Birds outside my window were singing joyfully.

My Dad, and this song, Today Is Mine, came to my consciousness immediately. It was one of his favorite songs, by one of his favorite artists, Glen Campbell. Thank you Dad; I continue to feel you very near.

When the sun came up this morning
I took the time to watch it rise.
And as its beauty
Struck the darkness from the sky
I thought how small and unimportant
All my troubles seem to be
And how lucky another day belongs to me.

And as the sleepy world around me
Woke up to greet the day
All its silent beauty seemed to say
So what my friend if all your dreams
You haven't realized
Just look around
You've you got a whole new day to try!

Today is mine, today is mine
To do with what I will.
Today is mine
My own special cup to fill.

To die a little, that I might learn to live.
To take from life, that I might learn to give.

Today is mine.

From September 1971, Glen Campbell sings the Jerry Reed song "Today Is Mine" on "The Glen Campbell Show" ("The Glen Campbell Goodtime Hour"). This song is on youtube.com.

February 27, 2020

My dear friends, family, and prayer warriors,
I have to be at Ruby tomorrow at 10:15. Surgery around 11:30. Chad will post updates.

I'll see you on the other side.

March 10, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #68

The horrid effects of CDiff are fast.. Recovery is sloooooow... Look at these 2 pics, taken just a few days apart, showing the effects of CDiff and my fall. Still fighting!

March 22, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #69

I haven't been well enough to post since going to the hospital for ileostomy takedown on 3/28, which was supposed to be a 2 to 3 day stay.

Day 2 I caught a bad case of CDiff, which is a terrible and very painful infection. Relentless and uncontrollable dirreaha, and significant gas pain throughout my abdominal area. I had a CT scan and several xrays, a tube up my rectum to bathe my colon in strong antibiotics for several days, and also took the antibiotics orally.

I also developed a large hematoma, 7x4x3. Several staples were removed so it could be drained. They decided to leave it open to close on its own, which they estimate will take 6 to 8 weeks.

Then the Corona virus started to hit and they sent me home before I was quite ready, but it was best for me since I am so immune compromised and very susceptible to catching that too.

Mom and I have been separated since, which has to be, but I miss here and we keep in touch by phone. I miss her and worry about her.

Yesterday I had to go to UHC ER to have all remaining staples removed because they were starting to scab over and skin over.

I have made slow but steady progress since getting home. Home health comes twice a day to change my dressings.

This progress would not be possible without the help of my friends, most notably Diana Bedell, doing the lion's share, stopping multiple times a day, and keeping my dogs. Also Brenda and Ken Mealey who are helping with my bunnies.

I still have significant pain at times, but continue to make baby steps forward each day.

Thank you to everyone who is donating to the GoFundMe page Kareen Greene set up for me. I am grateful for each one. I have been fighting over a year and the costs are unbelievable.

Most of all, I want you to know:
I love you
My faith remain strong.

March 26, 2020

This is My Story...This is My Song #70

He's Alive! Even today. Especially today!

April 16, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #71

I remember her. She is still part of me. Sometimes making her way to me, spilling out.
Sometimes buried a little deeper...
Resting and waiting.
Oh how I long for her company.
We have been friends a long time.
To hear her laugh.
To witness her innocence and amazement.
I will not give up on her.
Nor will she give up on me.
For she is the joy in my heart,
And the wonder in my soul.
She is a child of God.
And God has plans for us still.

April 22, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #72

As a young girl, Grandma Mildred Werner watched me while Mom and Dad worked. I was raised on this kind of music at her house--Hymns and Gospel on WPDX radio.

I am blessed by my heritage. It has offered me a strong foundation of faith that I could rely and build on as I grew. I think of her often.

This walk continues to be very hard. It has taught me many things. And it has deepened my relationship with God in a very personal and deep way; a way that I am not sure would have happened otherwise.

Much of the time it has been just me and God, without the daily noise and distractions. I have leaned on Him and he has never abandoned me.

Thank you Grandma Mildred.

May 16, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #75

After much prayer, soul searching, and a hard honest look at my reality and what is best because I am no longer able to properly care for them, I made a decision to rehome my 3 bunnies.

This is something I just don't do. My pets have always been pets for life...my kids.
So I turned it over to God to find a way. He, and these 2 dear friends, made a way, beyond anything I dared imagine or hope for.

Today they went to a home that will love and cherish them as much as I do. Experienced bunny friends I have come to know, respect, and love over the years. They will remain a bonded trio, with lots of room, and all their needs provided for.

There are no words to adequately express what this means to me. Much love to Jann, and to Sassy and Terri and Jeremy.

May 4, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #73

Obviously, I have not been able to do any gardening this year. But God did!

Perennials are one of my passions. For me, the garden is a place of life, rest, faith and renewal. A place to think and create. A quiet place to pray and listen to God's creatures. A cycle of promises made and promises kept.

What joy it brought to see God's handiwork continuing on without me. More to come.

May 9, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #74

This week I learned more about why I am having such a hard recovery from my illeostomy reversal and so much abdominal pain and gastrointestinal issues.

My colorectal surgeon has been telling me I have one of the worst cases of Radiation damage (had 29 treatments) she has ever seen in her career. I did not fully realize what that specifically meant, nor its impact. It's largely extensive adhesions.

The surgical notes for the illeostomy reversal have multiple references regarding adhesions. And that I was in surgery an EXTRA 2 hours just trying to remove some of them in the surgical area. They also had to open me in 2 places, versus the normal 1, because the tissue in the 1st incision was so damaged.

Adhesions are bands of scar-like tissue. Normally, internal tissues and organs have slippery surfaces so they can shift easily as the body moves. Adhesions cause tissues and organs to stick together. They can connect the loops of the intestines to each other, to nearby organs, or to the wall of the abdomen. They can pull sections of the intestines out of place. Symptoms can include:

Severe abdominal pain or cramping
Vomiting
Bloating
An inability to pass gas
Constipation
Loss of appetite

Now I know. It helps me to understand better what's happening to me, and specifically what to pray for, and I am grateful for that. Perhaps this information will also help someone else who is going through this.

May 21, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #76

Bowing to give thanks to the great Healer!

Saw my Oncologist yesterday. My Cancer marker from bloodwork was only 2.2, well within normal range. One of the ways they check. Another CT scan in 3 months.

May 28, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #77

This is my first outing in many months!

Today my good friend, H Lee Courtney, drove me to get my hair cut. I felt well enough to stop and share a bowl of ice cream and good conversation on his deck afterward.

My heart is bursting with joy and gratitude to feel the sun on my body, breathe fresh air, and hear the birds and squirrels.

May 28, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #77

This is my first outing in many months!

Today my good friend, H Lee Courtney, drove me to get my hair cut. I felt well enough to stop and share a bowl of ice cream and good conversation on his deck afterward.

My heart is bursting with joy and gratitude to feel the sun on my body, breathe fresh air, and hear the birds and squirrels.

June 8, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #78

Today, after working 6 hours I:

[🙏] Saw my Surgeon Oncologist at Ruby. She said you don't need me anymore unless you have complications. Everything is working as it should & I think the adhesions will soften some over the long term & the swelling will lessen.

[🙏] Saw my Doctor at the WVU Eye Institute for my acute glaucoma. He said your pressures are 13. That's great! See you in 5 months.

[🙏] Had an ultrasound on both legs to see if I have a blood clot. My left foot and part of my leg are very swollen all of a sudden. No blood clots! Maybe because of sitting so much as I returned to work this week, maybe I overdid the exercise over the weekend. Might have to have further tests to check the bones in my foot although there's no pain. If it had been a blood clot, they would have checked me into the hospital immediately.
Thank you Lord for protecting me and staying close.

June 8, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #78

Today, after working 6 hours I:

[🙏] Saw my Surgeon Oncologist at Ruby. She said you don't need me anymore unless you have complications. Everything is working as it should & I think the adhesions will soften some over the long term & the swelling will lessen.

[🙏] Saw my Doctor at the WVU Eye Institute for my acute glaucoma. He said your pressures are 13. That's great! See you in 5 months.

[🙏] Had an ultrasound on both legs to see if I have a blood clot. My left foot and part of my leg are very swollen all of a sudden. No blood clots! Maybe because of sitting so much as I returned to work this week, maybe I overdid the exercise over the weekend. Might have to have further tests to check the bones in my foot although there's no pain. If it had been a blood clot, they would have checked me into the hospital immediately.
Thank you Lord for protecting me and staying close.

July 1, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #79

Look closely...

I come to the Garden alone
While the dew is still on the lil-lies.
And the voice I hear, falling on my ear,
The Son of God discloses.
And he walks with me
And he talks with me
And he tells me I am His own.
And the joy we share
As I tarry there
None other, has ever, known.
He speaks, and the sound of his voice
Is so sweet the birds hush their singing.
And the melody that He gives to me
Within my heart is ringing...

September 7, 2020
This is My Story...This is My Song #80

Someone Needs to See You Suffer Well.

When you suffer, think about the people watching you suffer, and what they’re learning about Jesus. Suffering confronts us, undeniably in our face, commands our attention, and reveals our purpose and treasure in ways that the ease of comfort and security can not.
Suffering can:

• teach us how to empathize and be more compassionate and merciful to others; greater suffering requires greater comfort from God, which can make us greater comforters to others
• deepen our relationship with God and help us grow
• inspire others with hope, encouragement, confidence, and strength
• be a testament to faith
• used for God and glorify God
• bring compelling clarity to God's love, mercy and the assurance of his promises to us (e.g. I will never leave you)
• offer gifts and opportunities, not just pain and suffering

The deepest things that I have learned in my own life have come from the deepest suffering. And out of that have come the deepest things that I know about God.

Someone needs to see you suffer well with Jesus. Someone needs to see you clinging to his promises, treasuring his friendship, and praising his name when life is falling in on you.
Some may not know how much they need to see you endure because their suffering hasn’t come yet. But it probably will. And when it comes, they will remember those who they have seen suffer well.

I know this has been true in my life, both as a child and an adult. I am grateful for those who taught me those lessons by their example, in word, in blessed silence, and in deed.
(Adapted from an article by Marshall Segal)